We are now living in the Post-O era

I am not sure I can survive!






The last show was pretty anti-climactic after the big spread they put on the two shows prior -- and I kind of kept putting off watching them because as I say, how can I survive?  It is my cry-fest; it is a great way to unwind at the end of the day and kick up my feet and experience others who have much more to cry about than I do; or to remind myself that I can.  That I can continue to grow and evolve and become more of who I am, not less.

But she is also a lesson in over-doing it and it is time to chill a bit and get a handle on how to move forward in a far less frenetic manner.  I can't imagine running a network is easy; but at least she won't be doing it in conjunction with putting on a daily talk show.  But when you slow down it is hard -- you tend to fill in your "free" hours with something, anything.  It took me years and years and years to stop filling my free time with volunteer work or overdoing something like hiking mountains or tennis or whatever it was.  It is my nature to be engaged in something; and yet, once I stopped searching for ways to fill what I thought were holes in my life, you then wonder how the hell you got anything done doing "all that."

I am having a horrible time getting a grip on time right now.  For the last few months I have not done any writing -- and not because I am avoiding it -- but because I really don't have time.  I will then wonder, how can that be?  And yet, the minutia of everyday life butts in and pretty soon the day is half over and I haven't done even a quarter of what I set out to do.  This is a busy time of year, anyway, and we are all behind because we were gypped on spring and have been launched directly into summer.  Oh, it was so bloody hot out today I could hardly stand it.  And it's not like it is mid-July or August and it is feasible to go sit at the lake and sweat in comfort.  No!  I have way too many things to do, and getting that damn garden in is one of them.

And now everything has to be done without Oprah!  Who is going to do the show on weird tornadoes sweeping across the country and even hitting places like the Northeast where they are very rare?  Who is going to compile the experts and interview the families who survived?  Certainly not the mainstream media -- which is just a hopeless excuse for news telling.  Though I did enjoy the radio this afternoon when they kept repeating that a tornado watch is not as bad as a tornado warning.  Having just been in Oklahoma exactly one day before a tornado ripped through the very neighborhood I was in, I am just a tad freaked.  I called Charlie to tell him that he should go into the basement if things got weird (he was home alone and I was in the car with Maddie, quite sure I could outrun a tornado in the car.  I mean, I've seen Twister, and you can practically be in it and it is cool, you just wrap a belt around your waist and hold on.)  But then I thought, DO you go into the basement?  I have lived in this here area for all of my 40 something years, and I don't recall ever being concerned about a tornado.  I have no do's or don'ts.

Oprah, what the hell am I going to do?  I mean,  a post-O era is really almost like the end of the world. And here I am with no survival kit.

Damn.